well, i asked someone to be my sponsor at my meeting last night. i guess that means i am really committing myself to "working the steps" and moving forward. this is good. a bit scary, but good. i went to my first al-anon meeting in november of 2007. so i'm a newbie, a baby in this program, but i am here. that is so much more than i could say 6 months ago. so it's a start.
i feel like i have learned so much already, and know at the same time there is still so much to learn and do. it is an amazing way of being, a new mindful approach to life. taking on the steps means being in every moment, aware of my own thoughts and emotions and energy. it is exhausting and rejuvenating at the same time.
so this blog will be my 12 step journal. my place to share and learn and grow. writing it down makes it real for me. sharing it on the web helps me to remember that i am not alone on this journey, and that i don't have to hide in fear or shame that i am recovering. i can share in the hopes that someone else can offer a pearl of wisdom to guide me in my recovery and that maybe, just maybe, i can help someone too.
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