so i am reflecting on my post from earlier today, filling in the blanks on how i got here and my big unmanageable moments, and i am running through the 1st step in my head and thinking about this whole "unmanageable" thing and i have a revelation. a moment. an "i think i am starting to get this" kind of thing.
and my mind is trying to "define" unmanageable. i do this a lot. define things. classify things. i like thoughts and ideas to line up nicely and orderly. they never do, but i like them that way. so i begin to define unmanageable as any time i am trying to control something i can't. or anytime i let something else control me. these things are unmanageable, because you cannot manage something you cannot control.
so if i decide to let the fact that i forgot to put the filter in my coffee maker and the automatic grinder spits coffee all over the pot and the counter and the floor and begins brewing because i have walked away and now i have no coffee and a huge mess ruin my day, then my life is unmanageable. i can't do a darn thing about it once it has happened but clean up the mess and remember to be more mindful and put the darn filter in next time and start the process over with a more conscience approach. if i let it upset me or i get flustered and frustrated and angry about it, not only do i still have a mess and no coffee, now i have let the coffee pot control my emotions, i have relinquished control of the only thing i can control, and i fail to see that this is the universe speaking to me again, saying, "for goodness sake, child. SLOW DOWN." my life is manageable when i can have this happen and i can say, oops. did it again. slow down. breathe. just clean it up. it will be okay. just for today, breathe and you can get through this. manage what you can. you. your soul. your spirit. treat yourself with kindness. let the feeling of frustration be seen, then let it go. move into peace that this is a teachable moment.
be more mindful.
be here.
slow down. slow down. slow down.
now that is manageable.
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Very nice blog. I too am a friend of bill w's. I am going to bookmark this and come back to it. I was looking for definition of unmanageable for assignment and came across your blog. Thanks!
Vanessa H, FTW, TX
I'm also a real Good friend of Bill and the Other one as well and have to do a Step Meeting and came cross this Thanks for Posting it!
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